Fight Back Doubt and Get Prepared!

So you mean to tell me that everything that I've done........up until now........was for nothing.  Starting school when Braxton was 6-7 weeks old, pumping breast milk right after work to leave enough with my husband while I was in class......to driving back and forth from work-home-school, work-home-school............for 3 years.....to passing Chemistry online, learning from you-tube........to passing all Biology class online and again, learning from you-tube..........to having to drop out of Microbiology because of a possible C, to being able to leave work early for an entire semester to take another day class for micro and pass with a B, not to mention waitlisted for the class and bam.........no longer waitlisted.........to just making the cut off date to challenge the CNA exam with no experience what so ever, not a class, not a instructor, just you-tube..........to being the only one to pass the written and skills exam within a group of 8 students who DID take the CNA class, to being able to do CNA work with the CNA's I work with at my OBGYN for the mandatory 40 hours of experience, to failing (unfortunately) the TEAS twice and no points rewarded but it took me realizing that I was in just as good of enough shape because you no longer were awarded 50 points for just passing with a 71 percent.........to some students being admitted without TEAS points.....to there being a possibility that I WONT GET IT.........and all the above was for nothing.  To make me wait another semester.........or is this just what the devil wants me to think.


Gosh was I just in a funk from the fear of getting rejected out of no where.  I had to run out of work on my lunch break to literally cry because fear consumed me.  Doubt. Other students points. Applicant pool. You name it, I thought it was working against me. 


After sometime away from my desk, I was able to get it together. 


First I asked the Lord for forgiveness.  I spoke to my wonderful sister, and she told me why am I giving up before allowing God to move on my behalf.  To not pray and worry.  So thankfully, I was able to get myself back together and I did what I do best......keep going with the program, moved forward and found another way to prepare myself for when that door is open.  I went and ordered (with a Amazon gift card balance I had) Dosage Calculations 13th Edition that my school requires.  Supposedly there's a test on dosage calculations on the first day of class. 


I'd rather get prepared and continuing praying, then to sit and doubt what God has already done. 

Hot Fall Decor

No really, it's HOT and I'm decorating because I want it to be Fall, lol. It's the day before Labor Day, so we have a few more weeks until it's officially Fall. 

Last week, I showed pics of last years Fall Decor, but decided to make it a little neutral because the Fall reds, burnt oranges and greens just wasn't gonna do it for me and my blue living room. 

Very inexpensive Fall Decor I'd say. Lots of these items you see here where placed in different areas of her home and I added two chargers, the pumpkins and pine cones (which were spray painted). I always say to save money switch things up and take inventory of what you already have. 

 Here's my sisters fire place.....

 

I packed a afternoon bag ( decorations, ravioli, pull-ups, wipes, snacks) and we rolled out, me and my two kiddos. For some reason, my son loves to be free when he's at Aunties 

 Timberlands and pull-ups! 

Fast Forward to my pad after we were done at sissies

 

    And last by not least 

 

Oh wait one last area that's totally random 

 

September = Acceptance letters in the mail & Fall Decor

    


Okay.....seriously............ I couldn't wait until September rolled around for two reasons.  First and foremost, acceptance letters will be mailed later his month and I GET TO DECORATE! Yes today is September 1st and I've already been on a Fall décor haul.   No no, not at the stores, but outside in my yard and closets.  Yes, those are pine cones from off the streets people.  I mean why buy a bag of scented pine cones for $5.00 when you can trick your kids into picking them up of the streets..........come on somebody!


So Fall feast your eyes out on my latest project.  I don't have a fireplace, just this little thingy pictured above.  This décor was last years Fall jazz, but this year my home is completely blue and beige.  So we're retiring these colors this year and will let my sister have these, (her fireplace will be my first project this weekend) I on the other hand, this Labor Day, will look for lots of beige pumpkins, a few cans of spray paint (blue and cream) and spray the mess out of something this weekend.  So please stay tuned for that!


On the nursing side of things for this month.......there are a few things that I've gotten out the way.  For one, my sense of peace with this acceptance situation is on point for sure.  My trust is fully in the Lord that He has already seen me through.  I can't even begin to run down the list of blessings that's gotten me thus far................and with that being said, I know it couldn't have been for no reason. 


I've also become AHA BLS (American Heart Association, Basic Life Support) certified.  Those dolls were like real life..... six pack..... adult figured men.  The certification is not due until the times of acceptance and when orientation will begin, but I said that the heck...I have nothing else to do and Rex offers it to employees for free.  So there you have it.  Let's goooooooooo September!